Together since we were 15...Part 2

[Jenna333]

I am not good at being detached yet friendly and firm. At all. I come off as stand-offish. He just put the kids to bed and left. I stayed in my room with the door shut for the most part (I went out to kiss the kids good night). At one point he knocked on my door to ask for a hair tie (he has long hair). I told him I didn't think it was appropriate for him to be borrowing my things. Was that a wrong thing to say? I went downstairs to shut the dining room light off as he left. I think he was expecting to stand around and chat with me for a few minutes, but I walked right up the stairs and said see ya later. He stood there with a confused look on his face and stared at me as I walked away.

Thinking about the possible EA just makes my skin crawl. I don't really want anything to do with him romantically. I hope that lasts. It feels immensely better than the pain I was in. I'm stil in pain, but it feels more like mourning pain now, rather than longing for something living. That sounds awful! I am not wording it properly.

I've been on the other side of this. I've had an EA. He put up with too much. I won't be doing it. It isn't fair to anyone.