You're making progress. Don't give up. I'm not sure you should have showed her your list but you did and she seemed to appreciate it. I am far from one to say you shouldn't have show her bc your counselor seemed to think it was ok. Is he or she a DB minded counselor? Anyway, it is easier said than done but you may want to go a little darker for awhile. Let her wonder what you are up to and who you are with. She is well aware you want to get back together so ou needn't keep telling her. Stop talking about your R with her and stop talking about the future. She is going to MC with you and that is a huge thing. Let her live her life for a bit and see how it goes. I know I'm not one to talk but this could help in your situation. You are doing great and maybe a little taste of what it would be like without you, while of course doing what's best for your son, may get her to think about things a bit faster. Im no expert so take it for what it's worth. Just a thought..