W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P2

[Snowman]

Mr. Bond I somehow didn't even see your post before I replied to Andy. I agree with what you have to say and I would like to just have fun with her but the intentions of the dinner was to talk about us as she even said lets go to dinner and talk. Apparently she really didn't want to do that but I'm not a mind reader as you have pointed out numerous times. I would like my W to feel safe but she has mad it way hard to do so and I think she knows it. She didn't even dare to go to my sisters house to pick up my S. This is the sister and BIL that she wanted to meet with months ago to talk about things.

Do you think I should go back to no contact unless she initiates it?

As far as finances, I'm pretty much paying for everything that is a joint expense now since she has been such a flake on contributing to paying for anything like auto insurance, cell phone, or other joint things. she kicked me off her health insurance without really telling me until I asked her about it because it was open enrollment. I'm just going to switch most the bills to pay out of my account and stop contributing to the joint account. That will remedy that.

On top of all this she had told her lawyer to file in earlier December but the L never did anything for weeks so she thought the L had stopped. Then in the 1st week of January I get a solicitation from a random lawyer saying that according to the state court records I'm a respondent in a divorce proceeding and I should call them to use their service. I texted her about it and she said she was not sure. A week later she confirmed that the L had filed. As you can imagine I was frustrated as she is texting saying stuff about wanting to work on it and missing us but she filed. This is the games I refer to. At this point I'm not sure were we stand but I have not been given papers but saying you didn't know your lawyer was going to file is silly!

Some days I can live without even thinking about it and do pretty wells and other days it just gets to me. I pretty much feel divorced already the way my life has been. I don't know where to go from here???