WHG: Chasing that rabbit with the pocketwatch

[workinghardguy]

The house definitely has a different vibe now. DBing has become easier. W's and my interactions are almost exclusively about the kids. I did have a minor breakdown today when I got home from work and went upstairs to my room. W had packed more of her stuff. The massive mound of clothes that have, while comprised of different clothes over time, perpetually been on our chaise lounger was gone. Her books were packed up. It just hit me a bit and took a little while to recover.

Had school board meetings tonight so I was home maybe half an hour... but even so the vibe was different. W was having some type of adverse reaction to medication when I got home. She asked me to check her pupils and told me a bit about how she was feeling. I still went to my board meetings, though I did say if she felt like she was going to pass out or lose consciousness she should call me or have the kids call me and I would leave the meeting. Not sure I should've shown that much concern, but I was genuinely concerned and she was really freaking out.

An example though of the different vibe... at one point I was coming through the kitchen and W lost her balance and fell into me. I caught her and helped her up. She looked at me for a a second or two and shyly said "thanks, good catch." Last week had that happened she would've contorted her body to not even touch me and had I caught her she would've been absolutely spitting poison at me.

Now I'm in the dining room working on stuff and she's off reading on her Kindle in the living room.

We agreed this morning to have S evaluated by his school counselor. SD ended up crying in class today after her teacher read the email from me and she started crying (the teacher).

Work is finally going better. I've been so damn worthless for the past few months, it's amazing I still have a job. Thankfully before my sitch blew up I had pushed a bunch of projects into production so most of those are simply progressing on their own in the hands of my project staff. So far this week I've been able to get about $4 million of new housing development deals in place. In the previous five months I've probably closed $250,000 of deals. And I got I call today from our national organization's director (again) asking me to serve on another national level workgroup for our organization's emerging leaders. Life's good... except for all the other crap, but one day at a time.