Feeling like I am changing

[purgatory]

I think it's great that you can do something empowering for yourself. It's kind of like a metaphor for DB:

Each obstacle you come you: you have to determine the *strongest* hold, which direction to go, sometimes you have to stop completely and step back a little to see the bigger picture, move slowly forward/upward, you get really tired along the way- but when you overcome one of the obstacles, you feel strong and ready to tackle more.

Looks like things are moving up for you