Together since we were 15...Part 2

[Jenna333]

Stress only. I have not been eating much. I need to start exercising.

Well, right now I'm feeling very fed up! It clicked in my head that this was the female coworker that he looked up on youtube (she sings in a video) and FB (though he denies logging into my FB behind my back to look for her...he doesn't deny logging into my FB, just looking her up) back in September. He says there's nothing he can do to prove that he wasn't cheating on me, but he wasn't. I believe he wasn't, but I believe he had an interest in her other than friendship. He would hang out with her after work sometimes for up to 40mins while he left his depressed girlfriend at home. He said she's fun to talk to, and while I am as well, I wasn't when I was depressed. Ohh man. I'm angry. I told him it doesn't really matter, we won't have to deal with our issues ever again together.

This probably goes so far against DBing. At least I don't feel like a door mat any longer. A huge part of me really worries that even if we got back together, he would not stop with the lying. He's always lied to me It was awful being with someone that I did not trust.

He checked what I thought was a leak under my car before he and the kids drove off an hour ago and just lay there on the driveway. He stared off into space and said, "I hate this. My life [censored]."