H was off work today, and we spent the day doing various chores, and he spent time apartment hunting online and calling people/printing out apps, etc.
Inside, I kept feeling like.... he's hiding something again. He's keeping something from me.... and not telling me...
I don't know if it was just a blown up fear or something he was doing that triggered that. To be honest, I don't think he was doing anything.... but being engaged in getting things organized for the move. But to me, it felt like he had pulled back a little and it triggered this huge fear that lasted all day.
I finally did come to him when he was done with his work and I said, "Remember when you said if there was anything on your mind important about us, you wouldn't hold it in and you'd talk about it to me?" and he said he did.... and said if there was anything.... he would definitely talk to me. He told me a few times he loved me and held me....
but... for some ridiculous reason... I just kept feeling paranoid.
