Well, H text me a few times last night and called me. Just small talk. Then, he called me this morning just for small talk.

This just being friends is hard work. Especially since I want grab and hug and kiss him.

But he is sending me mixed messages. For example, Friday night when he came to pick me up, we were taking our D to Chuckie Cheese, and he grabbed and gave me a big hug and kiss. But for the rest of the weekend that we were together, nothing.

Today, I am feeling totally lost. Especially with my feelings about H.


H: 49
W: 47
D: 6
M: 6 1/2 yrs
H: Bomb #1 6-2010
H: Bomb #2 7-2011
H: Separated: 7-11-11
Reconciling 2-2012
Separated: 1-31-15 (I asked him to move out)