Time for a new thread. No changes in mt sitch so far. W is pleasant and I have not backslide in a while. Trying hard to GAL and enjoy life. Depression is almost gone with some mild sad feelings by noon time. Sleeping better and eating ok. I am able to concentrate at work again so that is a good thing. I have some new habits that I thought I should share. On weekends if GALing is slow I hit the bay log on to this site read and type. Really helpful. I also walk every hr or so when feeling sad or anxious.Ride my bike when the weather is good. D and I have decided to try new receipes every weekend. I really love doing that with her. I always feared messing up the kitchen thinking W would be annoyed. Now I don't care and do what I think is fun for the 2 of us. Really loving it. Going back to chucrh has also been great. Meet new people every Sunday. I talked to the Divorce care facilitator who also attends and I said I would like to volunteer. Need to talk to one of the pastors.
W and I had some weird ways of communicating, maybe it was all me. Dunno. But everytime I told her I wanted to do something she would either not answer and just look at me or kind of go around the question with no definitive answer. That made me nuts. Now I just do regardless of how she feels as long they are positive behaviors and things that allow me to spend time with D.
The D is full force ahead submitted all documents and court is sometime in March.
The one thing that has been happening to me latetly is that I have started to question whether I want to save this M anylonger. Some say it is normal, I don't know. But I am now almost rushing to get this over with? My W's L has not even submitted the intial paper work even though she was out the door in July. I have really no hope that this will work out for us so I am planning for the worst and looking to the future.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
