It took me about 4 years post bomb to even start to feel "normal" again.Reallybeing able to forgive both myself and him came somewhere in there too. It seems like it should come faster, but it didn't for me.
With all that you do and the pressure of doing it alone, getting overwhelmed and angry is understandable. Small bites. Finances will eventually work themselves out. Granted my retirement plan may be prison (just kidding....sort of), but I have a plan