After reading your post, Angel, then 25's new one over in new comers, I'm sitting here nodding and nearly smiling. Because it's TRUE and I'm screwing up.

There is a reservoir of anger just coming up in me. The past two days have been awful. I totally lost it on my h. Over a song!

We were out for a ride together and then... a song he put on OW's cd came on the radio. He reached forward to change the station and I said, "Why did you do that?" and he said, "I just wanted to listen to something else".

Suddenly I sat there seething. I know why he changed it... cause OW liked Queen, and "Thing Called Love" came on. I think I went crazy for about 30 minutes ..... and unleashed my fury on h.

Out of my mouth.... I say.. "No you are changing it cause SHE likes Queen, and I don't give a damn what she liked. I like Queen and I'm not changing radio stations every time a song comes on from a band that bitch liked."

He just looked at me like.... oh man. He kept quiet too. Kept driving slowly as we went over to a park to look at the moon. We were going to take some pictures together.

I think I wanted him to fight with me.... I just wanted to fight. I was angry as hell and I wanted to just have my say. I went on to say... "She also likes The Who, but that doesn't mean I'm going home and throw out every damn Who cd I have.."

Again, he stayed quiet... and then....after awhile...he says, "I'm so sorry. I know you are angry with me and I deserve this".

I was still angry, and I didn't care to hear "Sorry". In fact hearing him say it made my anger grow more intensely.

After we got to the park he calmly ... and sadly said,

"I am seeing the destruction and pain I caused you and I'm sick over it. I want us to move forward, and I can be patient. I just hope someday you can move forward. I don't ever want to go back to where I was last summer. I'm ashamed for what I've done to you".

I started to calm down, after he said this... then he got tears in his eyes, started to choke and nearly broke down.

I don't know WHAT was going on with me... but for some reason I had feelings like I just wanted to slap him, or make him suffer.

Not sure if this is normal either.

I'm trying to work through all of these emotions....

I'm feeling overcome by them... and for me to have this outburst is not like me at all.