Thanks, 2TP. Very true. I did not hear my W's words. I misinterpreted them as nagging. Early in the S I told her this. She said, see, you should have listened to me. This process has been incredibily difficult but also amazing. Although I am hurting for my M/R, I am grateful to my W for initating the S/D. Without it I would never have GAL and never snapped out of my bad husband ways. I would have continued blaming her for things that were my fault. I told this to my W some time ago and thanked her (very surreal moment given my desire to stay in the M/R). This process stinks but it is also very rewarding if you work every day to stay awake. Here's to hard work and hope.
