"She shook her head and told me that she did not know why she had to file for D to get me to change when I had so many opportunities to change and she had been telling me to get my act together in so many ways."
Here's the irony, MWD says that often what the WAW fails to realize is that men are fixers and respond best to Actions vs. Words. So when the WAW says things like yours did, "I had been telling you to get your act together..." well, those are just words.
Had she scheduled an appointment for you two to go to MC, I suspect you'd have straightened right up. Or if she had said if you don't do X I'm going to do Y, you'd have probably taken notice there as well.
But when all we hear is nag, nag, nag and then it stops out of the blue, we think well, things are finally getting better. But then when the WAW takes action, POW!!
We learn so much through this process, don't we?
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Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife