W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P2

[Snowman]

Andy,

I have read it and had been doing the LRT for quite sometime. Then she opened up and starting saying stuff about our R like she wanted to work on it. I know I should not be in pursuit or whatever but when she said she wanted to talk that usually means a person wants to talk. The only expectation I had was that she would talk and no other.

I feel like she is playing games with me by saying that stuff she did by text earlier and then saying different when she talks. I have not pressured and pursue for quite sometime until she acted like she wanted to. I know I did some backsliding but man this is crazy.

Most people when they make a promise to do something they do it. If I say I promise to call someone I do it. I don't sweep it under the rug like it doesn't matter and ignore like it will go away. I know I'm venting right now and frustrated but geez!

Should I stop all talks of counseling? Should I just continue allowing her to not make a decision forever? I will try to get back on track but I don't want to drag this thing through 2012 as well.

I don't even know if saying something like good luck at school is allowed at this point. I try so hard to not have expectations but I don't want to live like this forever. If she truly doesn't want to work on our R I would like to know. I will continue working on me but I don't think she really cares. She is more worried about her and the OM(s). Feeling like a door mat I have to say.