I was always a snooper up until a couple of days ago, when I decided to stop for good. That day I snooped on his phone and found that he'd started texting other females just a week after leaving me. I decided then and there that I couldn't do it anymore. What good did it do? He isn't coming home anytime soon. He's going to do what he's going to do.
I used to snoop all the time during our R because I didn't trust my ex. Now, though, we're not together and I need to not worry myself about what he's doing and with whom. My imagination runs away with ideas sometimes, but at least I don't know for a fact that that is what's happening. I cannot control what he's doing, and I can't change it. I have to come to terms with the fact that he will start dating someday, probably sooner rather than later (or at least he'll be heavily flirting, since I refuse to flirt with him anymore). It kills me to think about, but snooping only makes it worse. Finding out what he's up to has no purpose for me other than causing me more pain. I have enough of that!
This is a whole new mindset for me. I've ALWAYS been the type that needs to know *everything*. Not anymore. I need to keep *some* of my sanity intact
M & H 25 T 9 D 7 S 4 Bomb 11/11 Confused about feelings for me. Bomb 12/11 ILYBNILWY, moved out 2-1-12 We're exclusive & dating each other. 3-4-12 H moved back in. 3-31-12 I deserve better. I'm done
