[btw- does anyone know why the WAS can't look you in the eye sometimes, but when they are being mean/cruel, they look you straight in the eye? I would love to understand the psychology behind this.]
When my H walked out, he looked me straight in the eyes and told me that he did not love me anymore, that he hated me and when he saw me, that I actually made him so sick that he wanted to throw up. This went on for months. But now I realize he was justifying his affair. And now, six months later, we are spending more time together. I am even staying at his place per his request. We might have sex occasionally, but only if he pursues me. I do not pursue him. And if I see myself doing that, I back off. It's baby steps and I am working on being patient with this. This did not happen over night and fixing it will not happen over night.
