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[mishka422]

When I do things for myself I feel bad. I do them thinking that taking care of me first for a change will lead me to a better attitude but I end up feeling like I need to do double or triple the work to take care of others to make up for it. I don't have the energy anymore to do all of that.

It's not helping that I've caught a NASTY cold just 7 days into the new year in which I resolved NOT to allow illness into my life. I know that's not always possible but I have been taking such care not to be around sick people, taking extra vitamins, etc. etc. Didn't work and now I'm sick and miserable. UGH.

Thankfully, Gabe got called in to work so he isn't seeing me lay here on the couch whining and moaning. Not a good thing to be presenting when I'm already reasonably sure he has one foot out the door again.