To both 2 and 25: Thanks for helping me realize my error. You're right, $10 is nothing. I went ahead and wrote my W another e-mail before she could do anything -- she hasn't yet replied to my last one or made any transfers.
...now that I think about it, don't even worry about the $10. If I'm going to be contributing my part of the filing fee in March, you might as well hang onto it. Disregard the last e-mail -- much obliged.
Unfortunately, I don't think that I can get out of looking like a miser from my last e-mail, but at least I've resolved the problem.
Here are several responses to 25's comments.
Re. e-books: B&N has more books than Amazon now? That's wild! Of course, given that B&N deals primarily with books while Amazon offers a huge assortment of everything, it makes sense. Hope Lasik surgery goes well for you if ever you're ever able to do that -- it seems like people are happy once they have it done.
Re. my weight: Actually, my W has always preferred her men to be tall and slender -- as I am now. When she met me, I was also thin because I ate very little and worked out a lot (I was coping with mild depression my first few months of college). She thought that I was incredibly attractive at the time. I believe, as you do, that she's playing a game and secretly hopes that I'm starving myself out of grief. I'm very thin, but not enough to look dangerously so. I also eat healthy, but I'm by no means fasting.
I like your idea of putting a positive spin on it. Positive is an awesome way to go!
Re. the rabbit: In my opinion, my W uses the rabbit as an excuse for more contact. She originally gave me custody of him because he "prefers" me -- I'm the one who has primarily taken care of him over the years. However, she has told me that she intends to take him back once she moves back to this area in August of this year. I love the little guy a lot, but if it means one less way she can try and control me, the better.
Re. the sex comments: Instead of forcing either one of us to dig back through lots of comments, I'll just re-hash them here. Basically, when my W first started seeing OM and told me that she wanted to be separated, she told me lots of explicit details about their sex life as though I were one of her GFs -- the size of his penis (he's bigger than I am), how long he can "go" for, the semi-S&M style "roughness" that he enjoys, etc. I called her close to the "anniversary" of the day that she was raped (typically, a very difficult day for her), and she said, "Oh, yeah, OM knows about that. I told him, 'No handcuffs on that day!')
She also told me multiple times that he "knows what he's doing" and that I should spend this time working on "being comfortable with that side" of myself with other women. What's odd is that she never complained about my "technique" in the years before. Either way, this whole thing has put my sexual self esteem in the toilet.
Needlessly cruel? Yes indeed. I still have no idea why she told me those things. I can't help but feel that her sexual trauma is shaping her erractic and unwarranted behavior. At the time, I chose to listen to all this because I was in shock and felt like I needed to get answers as to why it was happening. Now I look back and often feel angry at her for saying those things. It only makes the "mind movies" that much more vivid to me.
