Thank you Pur, NBlost and thanks ANS, 'specially for the hugs. I need them. I'm kinda freaking out! I just went outside and shoveled snow like it was nobody's business. I was chucking big heavy shovelfulls over my head like a farmer does haybales. I feel better.
Can I ask a couple of questions and if any of ya'll feel like you might be able to answer please do. And I know these answers are just your opinions. I know that they will not determine the actual outcome
- Do you think I should stay until he gets back (even if we don't talk at all until then) ... Risk.. he could be really mean when he gets home and insist I move out pretty much immediately (I doubt he would toss me on the street that night or anything - Do you think that I should even want to stay in a relationship with this person? If he is willing of course. Which he may not be. But lets say, he comes home. Agrees to go on the trip and let me stay till May 1 (which I prefer) and in the meantime we get along fantastically and we start to fall for each other once again Given that we don't have much tied together other than history, our hearts and I am his commonlaw and POA (easy fix with a few papers). We could walk away without too much fall out.
Side note: I think I mentioned it above a bit but when I spoke with his ex i found out a LOT of stuff that we fought about when we got together that I thought he was being dishonest about, he was in fact telling the truth! The reason my spidy-senses were going off is he was being less than truthful about some things, but those things were relatively minor and really didn't matter. He was being dishonest because he was afraid he would upset me/I would leave him.
Thanks for all the advice everyone. You've been so helpful. And other people's situations and reactions are a great learning experience to read - only I wish in a way that they weren't there to read as I wish you all didn't have to go through what you are
