feeling like giving up.....former DBing against OW

[imthemom]

its not going good mish!!...i do well for a couple of days and then im back at it...i need to set a date and stick to it...i went for a run this morning and it sucked!!
but starting again tomorrow...my plan is to limit myself and cut down more and more till im at zero..:)

a friend of mine gave me a book from the movie Fire Proof...its a 40 day dare book...she thinks I should do it and even if it doesnt work out it will help me get to were I can forgive H...which is were I want to be regardless of a reconsiliation or not...Im gonna take a look at it and see if its something I want to try...she said it would be difficult because it tells you kind and loving things to do for H, which, she said I would have to commit to doing while knowing that he is still with OW....and probabley would have to modify accordingly...
we will see, not sure Im there yet...