I've already broken the rules. Last night when it was ten PM my time and early morning for P, I messaged him a pitiful message that said... "it's my bd for 2 more hours, was kind of bummed not to hear from you today". He responded..."I'm already working today.. Happy birthday!!" thats it
Then this AM (dinner time his time) I just sent him another email:
I know you're probably super busy with the visit. I am not sure when this one is over. I know you're "top dog" right now and probably really busy a lot.
But I was hoping we could speak and you mentioned we could, after the last visit.
I need to be able to tie up some loose ends with you regarding living arrangements, and budget.
Unfortunately, I kind of need to know. If we could talk in the next couple of weeks, I would appreciate it.
Also with Skype, I have NO idea what is going on with it. You show up as a '?' it says "you have not shared your contact info with me" and you're not on my list. Nor have I received any invites from your end. Just to keep you in the loop. (he has said he had added me just the other day but I don't know with that program)
I'm terrible.
I want to go dark on everything but I guess I can't take the chance that he will kick me out when he returns and I won't have a place to go. ONce I hear from his lips that it's okay. I can stay until May 1st (which is what I need for my budget) I could breathe a sigh of relief and go dark in.. semi-peace. If he says no, I will have to start seeing what the heck I'm going to do for end of Feb. Thats only 7 weeks away.
