Together since we were 15.

[Jenna333]

He is casually talking to someone that he has a crush on. Texting only. I told him I'm doing the same. I probably shouldn't have said that, but it's done now. It bothered him.

So, that, along with my upcoming school and job plans do have him feeling like I'm getting a life without him.

In a way I can't believe I slept with him again. I said I wouldn't do that after the last time. It's just crazy how much I want us to be together. For our kids to have their parents together. I've had such a hard time lately with him showing such emotion around me and feeling happy and sad at the same about my changes. It doesn't help that he's confused about what he wants, so part of him really does want me, and he is in love with me. He could make it 'easier' on me by not doing this, but no, I have to stompnon my own broken heart now to turn him down.

Sorry for the pity party.