Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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Starsky, you are right, I don't know for sure. I just really sense she is separated based on how often they get together, do vacations etc. Very much seems like a woman who has her kids 50% of the time. (I do know for sure she has 3 kids)

Separation feels much more real. H told his sister last night (who will be visiting next month from abroad) that I won't be at the family gathering they are planning. He didn't tell her details. He said he told her that because I had said I wouldn't be there. I reminded him that the only reason I won't be there is because he is having an affair. We had some text messages in the middle of the night last night about needing to talk more when H gets home about logistics.

I feel sad/torn up inside. I hope H feels some of the same emotions (although not sure much can penetrate his fog)