"I agree with you 100%. I do. And I know from even in the past, it's SO out of character for me NOT to communicate with him it probably a good thing."
I suspect that you not talking to him is not that out of character for you. Think back on when you were just getting to know one another. What did you do.. how did you act?
We were joined at the hip. Talked about everything all the time. Very communicative on both sides... so this is out of completely out of character for me
"Then I guess I must decide for myself if I can live with the uncertainty of not knowing if he would kick me out the moment he got home to do that. I can't really verify it and stay dark"
You "turned" him loose. You made that choice. Now you are questioning that decision. Unexpected.. No. Not normal.. No. Did you break it off to prove a point or was it what you really wanted?"
I simply wanted to postpone the wedding. I didn't 'turn him loose' I certainly didn't want to have to move out come Feb when he gets back. I broke off the wedding to prove the point of .. we need to see if we can work as a couple before marrying. Not that I wasn't loving him and wanting to work on the R
"So I hope you wonderful people will be patient with me venting on here everytime I am trying to resist the urge to contact him."
This is the place to do just that. Glad you found it.
Thank you
At the end of the day.. be you. People will flock to it or run away.
