Psalm, thank you. I'm definitely going to try that approach. Because I go in with good intentions, and by the end of the day I find myself wanting to unblock her and look. It's making me feel miserable inside.
Angel, you put it exactly as I feel it. I was in the crisis mode and desperate to hold our marriage together, but now that things have calmed down, all of the hurt and anger starts reeling inside of me.
It has been going on more often now and it worries me at times. I ask myself, will I ever be able to move on from this?
H and I have continued having some really good and open conversations about what happened last summer, his feelings, my feelings about how we got to where we were.
I'm trying to keep up with my GAL activities, and I'm not using them as a means to make H worry either. I know that I was doing this, by purposefully being gone too much or too late. After he voiced his fears... I did acknowledge his worries and I saw how I was using GAL in some ways to be purposefully hurtful. Don't want to be doing this...
I do try to keep the mystery going.. .and taking up things that interest me.
