BeingMe, honey, I think you have been and are standing. I'm not putting you down by saying that, but I honestly believe that to be the truth. I say this because you post about leaving, etc. and there is always something you mention that keeps you around for while, plus your comments about having "the slightest hope of him changing" Again, I'm not putting you down by saying this, my point is this; If you really are and want to stand, focus yourself in doing so, look at yourself and see if there are some things you can try to do differently.