Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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I think my biggest fear (hopefully irrational but definitely based on my increased insecurities since the A) is that H has somehow found someone better than me who can make him happier. He'll treat her better because she treats him better and off they'll go.

And, I end up alone with three kids.

People say I'm crazy to think this, but I think it's driving at least some (maybe a lot) of my fight for our marriage.