If I was granted three wishes right now, I would use one to go back and not pursue, beg, cry, freak out the way I did when still started to unravel for me.
Hi Oneeleven,
Maybe write the letter you'd *like* her to read and just tuck it away.
I have an ongoing email that I have saved in my drafts that is a hodge-podge of stuff that comes to my mind that I want to tell my FI, but know that I can't because it makes me seem desperate/needy/clingy/insincere
Just wanted to say that I think you're doing fine!
