I see a reoccurring theme in your husbands behavior that appears to be affecting how you deal with things. Often through out your posts I read how your husband has made comments about how distant you were, how unloving you were, how the sex wasn't "good enough", or frequent enough. I didn't pull quotes from your posts as time is short, but this is a feeling I get from your posts. Almost a passive-aggressive guilt trip laying the blame for his actions on your feet.
The questions is though...do YOU feel that you were a good wife? Were you loving enough, there enough for him, etc. If you were an outsider looking at the marriage prior to all this, do YOU feel that you would see a wife giving it all?
