Together since we were 15.

[Jenna333]

I'm having such a hard night. The kids and I are staying the night at my grandparents' house an hour from home. Ex and my grandparents were very close. I remember the first time he met them. It was our first Thanksgiving together. He was 17 and we had been together 9 months. Being here without him is unreal. My grandparents are angry and confused by what he's done. All night, without consciously meaning to, I imagined ex here with us. What he'd be doing and saying. I'm in disbelief that there's an empty spot in the bed beside me right now.

I so badly want to call ex I haven't felt that urge like this in a while now. I want to hear his voice. I want this to just be a nightmare that I wake up from. This is going to be a night that I cry myself to sleep.

I had been doing better. The past few days have felt so incredibly raw