Just talked to W. She asked if she still needed to come over to watch S tonight. I told her I hadn't found anyone yet, but could still look around if she couldn't.

We talked how hard its been with trying to find a medium for us to each see S. I thanked her for letting me have him for the next couple of days (since she is off today), and for coming out to watch him so I can keep him over night.

She said she didn't have money for gas, I told I could give her gas money.

She sounded upset, so I asked her if she was ok. She said she still wasn't feeling good. She said she was sorry for sounding snippy. She also apologized for be snippy in general towards me lately, she said she didn't mean to be.

We got into a conversation about her doctor and how she hasn't gotten her correct treatment for her sore throat now for 3 weeks. I told her to change her provider, so she can get someone who will help her.

This led to another conversation about her Fibromyalgia. I told her about a guy I work with telling me his wife had (she passed away) it and what she went thru and now I know a lot more about it. I apologized for not realizing how bad of an effect it had on her, and assumed since the doctors never gave her anything for it, it couldn't have been that bad.

She said it wasn't my fault, that she doesn't look sick and it was probably hard for me to deal with. She said I would come home and see her sleeping and nothing done and would get upset (hit the nail on the head) and didn't realize what was going on.

I told her again I felt bad for her and wish I could have done more to help her deal with it. I wish I knew how bad she was feeling from that, it would have made a big difference.

We both complained about how the doctors haven't really helped her with it.

I suggested to her again to check websites for a new healthcare provider (my insurance). She said she would do that.

She said something about not knowing why her throat wasn't getting better, and being worried of a possibility of cancer. I didn't even want to hear that, shared my concern with her. She said it would be her own fault for smoking.

I'm hope she finds a doctor that can help her. She has had Fibromyalgia for the past 2 years, and it probably was the catalyst to a lot of our problems.

So she will be coming over tonight to watch S. After we talked I noticed she left me a message on the phone (I missed her first call), asking if I had a sitter, to let her know, because she has other plans if I have a sitter.

Hmm....other plans? With no gas money?


M 33
W 29
S 4
M 5
T 7
11/7/11 Separation, W moves in with parents
12/1/11 W: "IDLY, I'm not coming back, it's over"
1/7/12 D Bomb Dropped