Not sure how to feel...

[brenalim]

My ex and I have been divorced for over a year now. When we divorced, I moved out of state and initiated no contact with him. He's tried to communicate with me (i.e. Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas, etc.) but I don't respond. I told him there wasn't enough room for both me and his mistress in his life. Since he didn't get rid of her, I removed myself from the situation and I'm following through.

I found out from mutual friends that he has accepted a job in Sacramento. His previous employers website has removed him from their contact list, and they have also removed her (he cheated with a work colleague).

I don't know how to feel about this. I'm still processing everything with the divorce. I don't regret leaving him, but I'm still very angry. I was blindsided with his affair. When I found out about it, I said to him "I didn't know you were unhappy." and he responded "I wasn't." WTF???

I'm caught between feeling happy that these two horrible people will be together and never cause anyone else any pain and being upset that they are still together and moving together. I hate that I care! They built their whole relationship on lies and deception! She knew he was married and it feels like he never really cared about me. Why do they get to live happily ever after while I'm still trying to put the broken pieces of my heart/life back together?

I know I need to focus on all the good things that I've got going in my life, all the progress I've made. I know that both of them will not be happy together in the long run... unfortunately, that doesn't help with the now.