W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P2

[Snowman]

Well my W may be cracking. We have a very good text chat about us (I think text is our medium of choice for now). She acutally said she missed me and us. She also said she was serious about what she said about not giving up on us. This all started because I received a L solicitation saying according to the state court records I am a respondent in a divorce proceeding. I text my W about it and said she had not talked to her L for 2+ weeks but she would call to see what is up. From this the conversation opened up some true feelings and honesty. I know my W was in there somewhere.

The next day we ended up doing breakfast together with my son. It was a little awkward but good. I texted her again today to ask about the lawyer thing and she said she left a message with her L to see what is going on as she had told the L to put everything on hold weeks ago. L want their money so I would not be surprised if the L pulled the trigger.

Tomorrow is our 6th anniversary so I'm having some flowers delivered to her work. I asked her if she would be open to dinner or something tomorrow and she said yes. I asked her about doing it without our S and she is still thinking about it. One way or another we are going. She is also going to call the counselor even though she was suppose to today. We will see.

I know I need to be careful and not push or pressure but I was not just going to let my anniversary go by without doing something. I will envision the best outcome and hope for the best. If we start to work on our R it will take time but will be worth it.

I'm going on a trip to Hawaii with my family so I told her about it as I won't be taking my S so I wanted her to know in advance and my W informed me she is going on a trip to London which was very surprising to say the least. Her Grandma is paying for her plan ticket and she is going with 2 girlfriends. I must say I'm hurt a little bit that she is going on one of her dream trips without me but there is nothing I can do about it now so I will just embrace it I guess. My W also informed me she partied until 5am in the morning for New Years which was somewhat shocking considering I don't recall he doing that before in the past or before our M. Not sure what that's about but it seems out of character again for her.

Anyway I will keep you all posted. Pray and hope the best for me as I have been fighting the good fight for some progress for a long time it seems like.