Here we go!

[alone]

I have not updated what has been happening with me in quite awhile. Things have been going quite well. My husband is very committed to our marriage. Unfortunately it is me that seems to be having more difficulty in moving forward and forgetting all the hurtful things that he said to me. But we are moving forward. In matter of fact things have been very good and that is when I look for something. It is like that I am now going through what he was before.

I find it hard to not trust my husband like I did before all of this. I do not like this feeling. I want to be the way I was before but I do not think that our marriage will ever be the same.

Don't get me wrong I love my husband and things are going very well. He has been very committed and being intimate has been the best it has in over 2 years. I have changed and the hurt that I felt has marked me. I hope that in time the hours of tears and pain that I felt will subside.

For now I try to take each day as it comes. Knowing that I do love my husband and that each day shall make our relationship stronger.

I hope that the New Year brings self awareness to each of you and that you find true happiness in your life.