Wife Left (Part 2)

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Got home from work, worked out (day 3 P90X, wow I am sore!) and called W and asked her if it was ok if I picked S up today. She asked what time, I told her around 5pm. She muttered something, then said something about going somewhere with him. I if she had plans with him it was fine I could get him later, then she replied she didn't have money anyway. She sounded upset, I asked her if she was ok, she said I woke her up when I called. When I got there, W practically hurried me out the door. She rushed to get S things together as fast as she could. I made small talk with her parents and 2 of her sisters. Before leaving she asked if I had anyone to watch S while I had counseling tomorrow, I said I wasn't sure, she offered to come over to watch him. I asked her if she thought anymore about Retrouvaille, she said she didn't think it was a good idea, plus she didn't think she could get off work. I had a feeling she would say that. (Not sure if I should press the issue, and bring up what I thought was a sign to go to it [from earlier post of mine, I asked God for a sign, then looked into Retrouvaille and saw what I thought was a sign].) Then I asked her if she wanted to go back to counseling together since our MC wanted to see us together at least one more time, she said yes to that. I asked her when she wanted appointment so I could tell counselor when I see him tomorrow. She said whenever was fine. I asked if she wanted to go in beginning of February, or at the end of this month or what, she said again, whenever is fine. (I have a feeling when I make appointment she will say she has to work). I am scared of going to counseling together, what if that's when she decides to drop the next bomb? I know I shouldn't speculate, I don't know if it its good for us to go together or not. She hasn't gotten any more help for herself. Her not wanting to try Retrouvaille makes me wonder, she isn't ready/willing to work things out.