JS I just wanted to tell you what an incredible writer you are! I found myself totally captivated in your post and re-read it several times.

To rebuild it must first be torn down. It was diseased anyway and the two parts must heal separately

I couldn't agree more. This seems to be where I am at in my R as well.

I am looking forward to reading more of your post.

Try to hang in there and keep rebuilding.

M:(f) 35
W: 45
3 dogs and 2 cats
T: 9 years
9/30/11 I love you, but I'm not in love with you
OW confirmed 12/23/11