It's been a busy few days since I last posted. I had my S until Friday evening last week. My S and I just hung out and enjoyed each other Thursday and Friday. We went out to eat on Thursday night. Friday I took him to Dunkin Donuts.
My W came to pick up my S on Friday night. She just seemed really stressed. She was unable to finish all of her work for that day. I guess her new position at her fairly new job can be stressful.
After my W picked up my S, it was time to swing into action. I went out for a 8.6 mi. bike ride. I needed to prepare for my New Year's Eve party.
Saturday I was able to get out to the bike path and ride 26 miles. It was warm enough to ride, but cold enough to make it an arduous task. On New Year's Eve, I hosted a New Year's Eve party for my Tuesday night Healing Relationships group (a.k.a. Ladies' group). I cooked dinner for 5 women! Definitely out of my comfort zone. We trashed my house with silly string at Midnight. We had a great time!
Sunday I went to church and experienced a great message and a wonderful service. I went out to lunch after church with two of the ladies from my Tuesday night group. In the afternoon, one of the guys from my Thursday night Men's group came over and we watched the Bengals lose, but still back their way into the playoffs. It was nice to have some GAL'ing going on this weekend!
My W dropped off my S late Sunday evening. She also dropped off the Christmas tree she put up at her apartment. I was mildly offended. However, I thought it through. The tree was actually mine from before when we got married. If I don't want it, I can offer it to her, donate it, or sell it. I am not going to be her storage facility, though. My S also mentioned something to me about my W getting a cat and/or a dog. I was offended by that, too, because I was hearing from my S. Also, I have 2 cats and a dog. One of the cats she wanted to adopt and she's the one who wanted a dog in the first place. However, I can't control what she does. By the same token, she can't control what I do, either. So if I don't want the animals, I can do what I want. I'll probably end up keeping them though. The dog kind of cuts into my GAL'ing.
Yesterday my S and I went up to my Mom's house to visit for New Years. When I visit my Mom, she will often encourage me to move on. She'll bring up things about my W in front of my S. Unfortunately, she's not the best person to talk to about my sitch. I think she's still to this day feeling some of the bitterness from her D from my Dad.
This morning, it was brisk 21 degrees outside. No bike riding today. I went for a 3 mile run. We have our first snow cover of the year, and it's just a dusting for the most part.
I think my ambivalence on my situation was shaken a bit last week after my W and I had the fight and a nice dinner afterword. However, I am not at the point right now where I'd want my W to come back without working on getting herself to a better place and/or without showing me a strong commitment to working on things. She has NOT indicated either of those nor has intimated in any way she wants to come back. I also don't want a paper M. However, I am not trying to force anything at this point. My plan is to keep GAL'ing the best I can. I'm praying about it, too, of course. I keep in mind this can take a lot of time and I've been given the gift of time I didn't think I was going to have. I am reminded of how long this can take every time I see 25's signature line.
Definitely out of my comfort zone. We trashed my house with silly string at Midnight. We had a great time!
