living in limbo

[learning2listen]

Well I made it through the new years weekend, it was hard to not contact H, but i felt after our last conversation he needs to not hear from me for a while...

He has been gone now for a week, made no attempt to contact d so far, complaining about money to me, and now wants to re-discuss how much he is willing to send me monthly..

I am not going to let him financially off the hook, it is not fair to me or the kids, if that means I have to proceed with attorney I guess I have to.

it seems to me he is living somewhere in a non-reality state, he thinks he can just tell me he is not going to help pay bills or raise our d, I know this is untrue, but I think he is using the "chance" we could reconcile as his reasoning behind this.. I really dont think at this point he has any want or desire to reconcile, he just baits me with it...


So I continue to take care of myself and my kids, that is all I can do...I actually went out on New Years eve, which I havent done in years, I had a great time with good friends and truly felt good...

I guess I will continue this path... for now its all I can do.