I see that pull again in ex's face. The same pull that was at the beginning of his crisis, choosing between his family and OW. He is struggling and not at all enjoying his life. This was suppose to be fun, now OW is making demands, the lust is gone, OW is spending his money like crazy. Oh well, karma is sometimes interesting to watch. He may very well give in to his OW, it is a huge possibility. I have started to prepare myself for that but along with that is misery. I have put my whole situation in God's hands and I know that he will do what is best for me. Everytime I see ex now I have this amazing peace within. Part of it is because he is no longer being cruel and hateful, but another part is that now I know I can live without him. Maybe my perception of who is really was distorted and I am also coming to grips with reality.
God Bless
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
