OMG! Yesterday was very stressful for me. I text my H yesterday morning to find out if he was up because I had to drop our D off to him since it was his turn with her. I text at 8:30 am to see if he was up. 9:00am came and I had not heard from him. So I loaded her up in the car and headed to his place which is less than 10 min from place. Rang his doorbell and he finally answered. He was still asleep. He asked why I didnt call him. I told him that I text him and if he didnt hear my text then he probably would not have heard the phone ring either. He keeps his phone on vibrate.
He works in the medical field, so he was on call all day yesterday. So he asked if I could stay and help with our D since his phone was blowing up and I said sure but I had to drop my car off to get the oil changed. So I did that.
Well I noticed that he bought new sheets for the bed because his other ones fell apart. I made a comment that he purchased dark red sheets. I started to laugh and said you know every set of sheets you have purchased in the past has been the same color. I didn't see anything wrong with that comment. Well he responded by rolling his eyes and saying that I criticize every thing he does. No, I was just making a comment on the color and he said I am sorry, it's just me. I said ok and left it at that and moved on.
After that, my mood had changed but I tried not to show it but he did notice it. When he is on call, he is totally stressed out. Well our D was being a brat and he was totally stressed which the both of them was stressing me out. We decided to take our daughter out for a while and that made things worse because the hospital kept calling him.
He asked me a couple of times during the day what is wrong and I would look at him with a smile and say everything is fine. He said I have known you for the past 5 years so I know when something is on your mind so spill it. I said ok and we talked a little bit. But I wasn't totally honest with him.
It's hard for me to be around him and not being able to hug and kiss him. He seems okay with it even though there was a couple of times he walked up really close to me and he acted like he wanted a kiss but didn't go for it.
He told me that I could stay with him or we could back to my apt and he will help me get our D down for the night and he would leave. I told him I would rather go back to my place. We ate dinner, I gave D a bath while he worked and he laid down with her until she fell asleep. He came back downstairs and finished his work and left to go back to his place. When he left, he gave me a quick kiss on the lips.
How can he act so cold to me and then sometimes so warm?
