Further update since earlier post: up and down day. W engaged me about world news several times at breakfast. W ignored me when I said goodbye and left for work. The vibe seemed especially awkward when I returned from work. Asked W about dinner plans. She said she wasn't hungry. Took Ds out to eat (mainly to get out of the house and W's hair). Expecting news regarding my promotion at any time. Don't know if I have mentioned this but it involves a major change in the focus of my work and my re-assignment to an altogether different company within my company. Not sure how to handle accepting it when it comes. Should I wait and consult my W? I am afraid if I do that I will be tempted to turn the job conversation into a conversation about the R (since both W and I believe that a number of our R problems are related to my work. I also believe that one of the reasons, for good or for bad, that W withdrew her D filing and did not tell me about it was to see what would happen with the promotion.). Hard to know what to do to keep the focus on me moving forward and continuing to change for the better when I know in my heart how I want my W to react to the promotion.
The main thing lately is that I find myself taking a lot of walks to get out of the house and to avoid asking W what the heck are we doing? Are we moving closer or further apart or just stuck? I don't want to push her out the door but being S and living under the same roof is becoming more challenging and frustrating for me by the minute.
