Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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Thanks GH, I think you and MZ have valuable perspectives. GH, looks like your W eventually returned?

I think I've been hoping the holidays and our counseling session tomorrow could change things and we wouldn't need to separate. The reality is settling in that we very likely will need to. I also feel like H is trying to turn things on me so that it seems like I'm now the one initiating a separation.

I am going to go for a run and try to get a positive mental attitude going for tonight when H gets home (from a bowl game). We'll then go to work and then our session tomorrow at 4:00. I need to have an open mind for that session and see where it goes.

Last night, I got too sad/weepy and it is so hard not to get negative/angry about our sitch. H didn't help by cracking a couple jokes in the middle of our discussion. (There are times where he clearly seems in a fog or MLC)