Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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We talked more last night. H believes he has an emotional connection with OW that he has never had with me and isn't sure we could ever have. I think that also flows into the sex. He's still not quite sure he wants to leave...but I also don't think he's at all ready to give up the affair.

I would not be surprised if the outcome of tomorrow's counseling session is that we head towards separation. I am just tired of this and there's no way I am going to become a fun, intimate wife for him when he gives me so little time/energy and he is involved in a full blown A.

If we go down that path, it'll be painful to tell the kids and I don't think H is prepared for what that means for our family. I think he still wants to think he can leave his stuff here and basically drop in a couple weekends a month to pick up the kids and do fun things.

H also claims he hasn't seen enough warmth and connection from me during his A...so he feels like nothing will ever change. I also talk to my DB coach tomorrow...I do think giving him some space was helpful, but too much LRT may have backfired on me....who knows.

I do realize something has to change...this is crazy.