Thanks Snodderly,

I don't think I'm looking for a Mr. Wonderful quite yet. I'm looking for the man my XH used to be, but I'm afraid that man never existed. He was just a figment of my imagination. A false front, so to speak.

Finished the kitchen this morning. That's all my budget can afford at this moment. Although there are at least five other things I wish to do, they will just have to wait. One at a time.

I'm truly amazed at my turn of pattern in sleeping. It's been so long since I was able to go to bed without the fear and anxiety that I wouldn't sleep. Now I can't seem to get myself up. Getting enough healthy sleep sure makes a difference in your outlook, as well.