Today is such a bad day. I woke up with the crushing sadness of knowing that even once he comes home, even once he gets back, I still don't have him.
My dreams of our happy reunion are gone.
I remember when he first deployed I was worried sick every night something awful would take him away from me and I'd never get to hold him in my arms again. Now that has come true but no one took him away.
I'm trying to only contact him if he contacts me. Which I've done but today is hard. I've hovered over his email address many times already today.
