Like Two Sparrows in a Hurricane (2)

[MAL]

Ugh. I am old enough and smart enough to not get caught on this roller coaster thing with RC. He does one little thing, and my heart goes pitter patter, my head spins, and you could knock me over with a feather.

P-U-L-EEEA-SS-E!!! lol

I haven't talked to him since church, and I like I said, I know he knows he hurt me so me being quiet is not a shocker. I figured I'd respond if he communicates with me, but otherwise no contact for now.

On Tuesday I'll see if he's going to the Rec Center to work out, but I will wait until mid-day Tuesday to even check on that.

I want to see if he makes contact with me (stick to the plan Mal, stick to the plan).

Earlier today I made a post on Facebook about what I did at my brother's for New Year's Eve. I also mentioned a really sweet text that my OS sent me just after midnight, telling me how great of a mom I was. In the post I wrote "I'm the lucky one."

This evening, RC clicked "like" on the status update. Although he is on Facebook a lot, he rarely posts and rarely comments on other people's posts. He mostly plays games and I think he talks to J a lot that way.

It was nice to see he read it, and I know his feelings are deep for my OS. So he would find the text and comment about OS heartwarming. No surprise so I tried not to make too much of the him clicking "like."

Just a little while ago, I made another post about going out for dinner and a movie. I didn't say with whom - trying to keep that mysterious edge in case RC is lurking. But people who are friends with YS would be able to figure it out if the read his page because he commented on the movie and tagged me in his post.

And just a few minutes ago, RC clicked "like" on that post too. Twice in one day -- not like him.

So there went the heart "pitter patter" -- good grief. I am such a sap. lol

It is 2am in the morning here and he is an early to bed kind of guy. Why on earth would he be up this late? No idea. I'm just surprised.

Stick to the plan Mal, stick to the plan.... :P