Feels like the bottom of 9th with 2 outs

[NYCPeter]

Thanks everyone - I'm pretty done, I don't feel I have the energy or strength anymore - last night I was really concerned about her, did she have an accident, did she get arrested. I left numerous text and VM's just asking for confirmation she was ok.

W has not filed - she has said she would do so after the holidays. Not sure what I have to swing in my favor - realistically she'll get custody - I could not do it with my job and the fact I have no family locally and that she's been mainly a SAHM for the last 10 years. With a child with CP it would be tough to hold down a full-time job, keep all doctors appts etc. I'd like to keep this amicable so I am not forced to be an every other weekend dad.

Re Child Support - she'll get the state formula (25% of my gross salary) - re: Spousal Support - could be anything from nothing (v.unlikely), $1k a month for 6 years (possible) to $2k a month for life (possible).

Doesn't leave much to build a home for when they come to stay with me.

We went to lunch at a restaurant today - really hit home how hard it would be to look after both girls on my own - especially if they are acting up a little.