What do you want to do? I don't say that to sound flip but really do you want to wallow (and sometimes that's OK) or do you want to feel better.

I've been there, I wallowed for a long time. But I also did things that got me away from that wallowing. Rode my bike, took a walk, read inspiring things, talked to friends, saw a therapist, wrote in my journal, talked to my kids. But sometimes I just cried and felt sad and then had enough and went and did something else.

It's your choice.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss