Starting over....again !

[Shelby]

Thanks whatisis ! Great poem. I get the message. I will read it whenever I am feeling weak.
Thank you, mainemom1. I had a little talk with myself yesterday. Told myself I do not want this man he has become, in my life. Time to move on from what could have been and what once was and start my own life.

Yeah, easier said than done, but it made me feel better for a little bit. I survived yesterday better than I thought I would. When I knew it was about the time he was at his moms house with the girlfriend and she was meeting the brother and his family for the first time. I was in the car alone, I had myself a nice good cry, then dried my tears and went home to my daughters. I just had a thought... He always sits in the same seat at the table, I wonder if she say in my usual chair. Oh boy, I am sounding crazy again. Haha ! It was just a thought, doesn't mean anything either way.

Later today my Girls and I are going to his aunts house to celebrate the new year and his moms birthday. His brother and family will be there. Just another random thought here...as close as I am with his family, maybe it is actually more of a problem as far as keeping the pain around, maybe it is time for me to start distancing myself from them a little. Well now that the holidays are over that will naturally happen. I don't want to lose them, but maybe it's not healthy to remain so connected with them. I'm not sure yet. Definitely something for me to think about.

Here's to a beautiful 2012 for all of us !!!