Like Two Sparrows in a Hurricane (2)

[MAL]

Yep, Ellie. You hit the nail on the head. I don't think I ever truly took any kind of risk since my D. Until recently, when I got up the nerve to go back to church and to talk to RC.

And knowing that I'd most likely be hurt or rejected, I put my heart out there, for the very first time. I know that RC knows that too (he told me when he realized it), which probably made this even more difficult on him.

I have dated several guys since the D, but this was the longest R. However, I don't think I ever really let it all go and I was afraid.

After the D and all I went through with my ex, I know how strong I am and what I can do. So why so much fear?

Anyway, there were issues, like any R, but I know I was the main problem in the R with RC, and I own that.